“Sometimes you feel the fight is over….” Today I woke up with exactly that feeling of giving up. Devastation. I am defeated. I am awfully depressed and although I may walk through every day as a winner, i am only human. I still can’t stop listening to myself repeatedly sing Craig David’s Rise and Fall. It’s not the kind of singing that would make one come to terms with their situation or rise out of it, but singing all the same.
Today is one of those days where death looks easier than life. I hope that todayI get hit by a truck and wake up to nothingness tomorrow. I do not want to live anymore and I am sure the universe will forgive me if I die without having accomplished my life’s purpose.
In my next life, I will remember to check my “To do List” from this life.